Fuckinnnnnnnnnnn.

Lin Nguyen says:
ahahha
eh fucking irritating .
1 asking for 2 number
then 2 dont know what give or not
AmiRah ♥ Μɑsɾι When Will I Ever Be Good Enough For You ! says:
1 who ?
Lin Nguyen says:
then 1 keep persisting .
AmiRah ♥ Μɑsɾι When Will I Ever Be Good Enough For You ! says:
who tat ?
Lin Nguyen says:
3 ex lah .
that fucking djasgfjaf guy .
soccer .
AmiRah ♥ Μɑsɾι When Will I Ever Be Good Enough For You ! says:
ouh THAT fucking
haha
so he fucking like 2
haha
n wan fuckin 2 no.
Lin Nguyen says:
its fucking annoying !
AmiRah ♥ Μɑsɾι When Will I Ever Be Good Enough For You ! says:
and 2 dont trust fuckin
n fuckin
Lin Nguyen says:
HAHAHAH
AmiRah ♥ Μɑsɾι When Will I Ever Be Good Enough For You ! says:
so fuckin ,

Lin Nguyen says:
thanks for fucking making me laugh you fucking layyong .
hahahah
AmiRah ♥ Μɑsɾι When Will I Ever Be Good Enough For You ! says:

fucking ?
yeah
fucking
so fucking 2 should not
shit tat dint fucking came out right
haha
Lin Nguyen says:
hhahahahahahahhahahahahahhahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahhahah
AmiRah ♥ Μɑsɾι When Will I Ever Be Good Enough For You ! says:
2 should not fucking give
Lin Nguyen says:
hahahahaha
AmiRah ♥ Μɑsɾι When Will I Ever Be Good Enough For You ! says:
wait
Lin Nguyen says:
im fuckin crackin up my asss off .
AmiRah ♥ Μɑsɾι When Will I Ever Be Good Enough For You ! says:
i totally forgot who the fuckin is tat fuckin ?
who the fuck ?
haha
Lin Nguyen says:
HUH ?
HAAHAHAHA
imma fuckin blog this shit !

I fuckin love that layyong.
To 2 > No offence hehe.

Teehee!

"Let me tell you the difference between a woman and a man.

A woman is not a woman unless shes pretty.

And a man is not a man unless hes ugly."

- The cartoon from Cartoon Network.

Matt "Dumbo" Nguyen

Gosh, dont you just love him. He makes me all smiles. Asian guys are just so fuckin hot.

Drooooooooooooooooooooooooools~

Leavin' the live, livin' the leave.

Alright, updating early today.

Another post bout my thoughts, so its ok if you guys aint gonna read it.

Somehow im pretty thankful that my parents got me in for madr.

Like, i know i dread waking up early on a SUNDAY morning and everything while everyones asleep.

But thats just it right? Thats the only thing i dread, waking up early. Besides that everything goes fine.

Madr is fun, id say. I have awesome friends there, and the Ustad(zah)s are awesome as well.

Well, in a way.

Today is the last day for the term, one month off from madr.

Ustdz Hasanah, my form teacher, said that we'll be dismissed early.

But before dismissal, she talked to our class. Of 12. I know, alot of people ponteng.

Anyway, what she said gave such a big impact.

Ive been thinking about it.

Ill just mention the words for the girls.

I remember her saying something like,

"Awak semua dah besar-besar. Saya dah tak payah bilang lagi aper awak harus buat. Saya tak tahu lah kalau awak keluar tutup aurat atau tidak. Tetapi awak fikir lah, kenapa orang perempuan mesti tutup aurat? Kenapa? Kerana orang perempuan itu Permata. Seperti Permata yang disimpan di dalam, selagi ia disimpan, dijaga, lebih tinggi lah nilainya. Kalau ia dibuka, ditunjukkan kepada semua orang, dah tak ader lagi nilainya. Lebih banyak awak tunjuk, awak dah tak ader nilai. Awak fikir lah, kalau awak keluar, pergi jalan-jalan, kalau awak kena langgar, awak mati dengan keadaan tidak tutup aurat, ke mana tempat awak di akhirat nanti? Awak semua dah besar, boleh fikir sendiri."

Much bigger impact in malay than in english. So if you guys dont understand then, well, i guess youre just not meant to.

So it got me thinking very super deeeeeep alright.

It got me scared.

It got me wanting to change, i have very very strong urge to, really, i swear, across my heart.

But..im not strong enough. Not at this point of time.

I know, theres no fuckin excuse to change.

Theres no fuckin excuse in wanting to do the right thing.

Theres no fuckin excuse for God.

And i want to change, im sick of this.

How can i expect happiness from God when i cant make Him happy?

Man, everythings pushing me down.

Sociallife. The most difficult thing of all, the most difficult thing to handle.

Well, i cant, thats for sure.

I just think that, i dont want to be happy your way.

I want to be happy, like that.

Like how a human is supposed to be happy, and satisfied at the very least.

The worst thing is, i did it, i stopped and i cant do it again.

Now it already dont matter what Mum says.

It already dont matter what Grandmum says.

It already dont matter what Dad says.

It dont matter no more.

They want the best for me then, not now.

I tell myself i shouldve listened.

But would society let me?

Why do i let society decide?

Why do i let society win me over?

WHY LIN WHY.

Ustdz then played a song called Perpisahan.

Dismissed.

Walked out, and just before going down the stairs, she came up to Atiqah Nad & I saying "Eh saya belum salam awak."

And then she salam-ed me.

She salam-ed me.

Yes.

I was very surprised, i mean, why would she salam me, i was the one whos supposed to salam her.

Then she gave a hug.

Strong feeling shes leaving.

Haiy. Got me upset.

I even thought whether its easier to live as a girl or a boy.

As a girl, its difficult to take care of your aurat and everything else.

And as a boy, its difficult to resist temptations.

So ive learned to treasure things when i still have them, cos you dont realize it till its gone.

Yeah, ive been losing alot lately.

& thinking back, i never really treasured those times.

Because i took advantage of them, all of them.

I thought that these people ive lost would stay with me throughout, all the way.

But, thankfully, i havent lost them completely.

I only lost a part of them, and i can still get back what i lost.

I hope.

& when you lose something, really lose something, you just have to go on with something else.

You just have to.

Like it or not, you have to make yourself like it.

Im learning to accept everyone in my life.

Because i choose to make the best out of my life.

Life is short, the years dont matter.

I can die tomorrow, or maybe the next day, maybe even tonight.

I dont want to..

But you really never know.

I want to change back.

But im losing everything.

I want to work alone.

I want a mind where i can tell myself what im doing is right.

Can i have that?

No i cant have that.

Mangkuking.

Yesterday.

Kallang Bowl.

Atiqa Amirah Nadzirah.

Enjoi~ ;)

Atiqa lend me a red sock. Just one.

Fierce :B

:B

HAHAHA. Draw score.

1st goes to Nad.

IM SECOND, TAKE THAT!!!

Dont the balls look yummy? :B Hehe.

Awesome time with you girls.

With much luv.

;)

Keri Hilson is so fucking hot.

Freedom.

I FEEL VERY VERY SUPER DAMN EXCITED NOW LIKE RIGHT NOWXZ.

LIKE SOME KIND OF FREEDOM.

SOME KIND OF ACCOMPLISHMENT.

:D :D :D

ITS THE 28th.

RIGHT?

AM I RIGHT?

YES IM RIGHT ITS THE 28th.

3 MONTHS.

IT TOOK ME 3 MONTHS.

YA I KNOW ITS NOT VERY LONG BUT,

SHEEESH THIS FEELING OF EXCITEMENT.

NO I DONT KNOW WHY ITS EXCITEMENT.

I JUST CAN TASTE THE FREEDOM.

AHHH IT TASTES GOOD.

I FINALLY MADE UP MY MIND.

:D

i have decided that what im really looking for is a serious relationship for my next. If there ever will be at all. I dont want it to be those kind of dont-do-this-cos-i-say-so or dont-do-this-youll-have-less-time-for-me or ya-meet-me-and-ill-send-you-home-afterwards or hey-happy-monthsary-i-love-you-and-always-will-we'll-be-forever or whatever. (hey that rhymes) i want my next boyfriend to accept me for who the hell i fucking am, not say forever but always, stick with me, who can listen to all my problems, most importantly whom i can trust, cos when i say problems i really mean like bigtime problems ok, and for every monthsary, i dont want anything, i dont want to count, i dont want ANYTHING, i just want him to be constant, standing right where i need him, where i can find him and where he can find me and most most MOST importantly i want him to LET ME TAKE EVERY SINGLE OPPORTUNITY FOR MYSELF. Remember, like when i cried because of NDP? Yeah, i want a real boyfriend with the mind of a real man who would say "Yes you should take part, i know it would be hard for you to cope with your studies but i will be there for you, i will support you, NDP is pretty much a huge thing to be in. Go for it. I love you." Rather than "EEEE NDP? For what? You tell me? You will get anything for NDP meh? Better you go dance at the street right? Wtf." SEE THE DIFFERENCE? I really think it should be this way, and not forgetting i want him to be able to TEACH me, be it studies or sports or music or maybe even dance, but most importantly about religion. Because ive been missing out, whats the point of a boyfriend when he cant do anything good am i right am i right? He must bring me to the right path. I want somebody that i can talk to. I rather those quiet guys, and i want em short. I want em like me. I dont want happy happy rs' where you cant listen to me talk and you dont wanna talk to me. I dont want him to be those "haiy, there she goes again. She keeps on telling me her problems..." There isnt a point is there? The past really helps you for the future you know. Thinking back, ive learned about whats more important. The past kills you, so much, but oh well fuck that. Everyone goes thru that. Wake up and make plans for the better future. Gotta work your life out, the good way. We all can. ;)

Alright, yes, i know its tooo early to think about that now. Hello, im just 15, i cannot find a guy like that now, im too young for a serious r/s. Im just 15, i want to talk about serious, setia and everything? Can i be serious?

Well i think i can.

BUT. Thats the best part!!

I AM JUST 15 AND I CANT FIND ONE!!!!!!

YOU GET WHAT I MEAN?!

THAT MEANS I WONT FALL UNTIL YEAAAAAARS LATER.

:D :D :D :D

AHHHHHHH IT ALL ADDS UP.

IT DOESNT MATTER ANYMORE WHETHER IM THE ONLY ONE WITHOUT OR WHATEVER.

BECAUSE IT REALLY DOESNT MATTER.

IT DOESNT MATTER ANYMORE HOW I DRESS WHAT I DO HOW I EAT WHO IM WITH WHY I CRY HOW I TAKE PICTURES ETC.

SHEEESH FUCK THE 3 MONTHS MADE ME SUFFER TTM.

ABSENCE MAKES THE HEART GROW FONDER?

IT DOESNT WORK ON ME ANYMORE, IM SORRY.

AS MUCH AS I DO MISS YOU.

BUT AS MUCH AS I THOUGHT ABOUT IT.

IS IT YOU, THE ONE THAT I WANT TO WALK ME HOME FROM EVENTS, THE ONE I WANT TO HOLD MY HAND, THE ONE I WANT TO TALK TO EVERY NIGHT, THE ONE I WANT TO LISTEN TO MY PROBLEMS AND TO ADVICE, THE ONE THAT I WOULD LOVE TO "TAKE OWNAGE OVER" AND ETC.

AS MUCH AS I DO WANT ALL THESE.

I THINK AGAIN AND I REALIZE,

NOPE.

BECAUSE IT AINT POSSIBLE.

BECAUSE IN THE END I WILL ASK YOU TO GO BACK.

EVEN IF IT IS, IT WOULDNT WORK OUT. TRUST ME. ;)

GOSH IM SMILING AS I TYPE THIS.

IM JUST HAPPY.

WHY?

BECAUSE TODAY ON THE 28th AFTER 3 WHOLE MONTHS I FINALLY LET MY HEART FLY.

FLY HEART FLY!

I LOVE YOU ALRIGHT.

Longest slide.

27th.

How much faster can time pass?

Tomorrow 28th.

3 months 3 years.

27th.

Last day of school for the term, for the semester.

Like fuck yeah!

J U N E H O L I D A Y S :D

But holidays are fuckingly packed. Wanted to work but so little time.

1st & 4th week > YOG

2nd & 3rd week > SUTRA

I cant wait.

But wheres the money ):

Had PET Rocket thing today.

Was better than i expected, really!!

I thought it would be boringgggg stuff, plus i didnt have any Coke/Pepsi bottles.

In the end, one pair only needed one.

So, paired up with Atiqa and made our PET Rocket.

We called it EFFLIN.

Cool or what right. Heh heh :B

Ours didnt fly that far, but the first time the water splashed in our faces and we were like YEEAAAAAAAAAAARGHJAFSJDBGeMH!

Recess ate rice for the first time.

The rice had the texture of peanuts. Mkay, i mean like, when you chew it its like chewing peanuts.

=.=

3Endeavour won 1st & 2nd place.

BIO ROCKS.

Oh yes i got to bring back the rocket. Yay!

After school completed 10 malay articles and handed it up.

Pathetically thin i tell you.

Iman asked me to go jogging when i got home but then he backed out.

Mama texted me asking me where i was i replied saying i was super bored and guess what she came back with donuts. Yummy.

28th.
Girls' Day out tomorrow. I feel the excitement somehow.
But im so out of ca$h.
Ca$h, come to me now plea$e, because you are the only exception.
You can bring me happine$$.
Hey, im watching Gelora Di Hati Sara or something now on Suria.
Fucking funny sia the father fell in love with the son's wife but he doesnt even know that the woman is the son's wife and hes also planning to get the son married to another woman. Wahlauu, the son got damn paranoid i tell you! Hahahaha, funny. The woman just said "orang tua tu belum gila lagi lah nak jatuh cinta dengan saya" Nyai laughing until so cute. :B
So, what should i wear tomorrow? :B

Heres a picture taken with Helisa last Sunday. Eww, i know, i look like crapsjfgafsdalkhsklhah. Btw she loves ma braces wooo :B

Nights lurvers, have a good Vesak Day! ;D

Absentmindedly making me want you

Its flawless, its really something.

Its fearless.

Cos i dont know how it gets better than this.

;)

Wah shit man im so sorry but this is something like freaking hot manxz. If only they dropped the suits. TEEHEE! :B

I CANT HELP IT.
YOU ALL WANNA KNOW SOMETHING STUPID?
I JUST REALIZED ALL THE COMMENTS ANY/ALL OF YOU WROTE IN TO MY PREVIOUS POSTS.
AS IN LIKE, SINCE LAST YEAR.
NOW I FEEL GUILTY FOR NOT REPLYING.
MAYBE THATS WHY YOU GUYS AINT COMMENTING ON MY POSTS ANYMORE.
I KNOW I DONT HAVE A TAGBOARD.
BUT YOU GUYS CAN STILL COMMENT!
CLICK COMMENT CLICK COMMENT!
I PROMISE I WILL REPLY.

AWW, IM SORRY GUYS....
REALLY, I AM.
Awwwwwwwwwwww guilty ttm...... ):

YOU NEVER LISTEN , YOU NEVER UNDERSTAND , YOU NEVER FEEL , SO YOU DONT TALK .

We think we understand each other, but we never really do.

-Luigi Pirandello

“I know that you believe you understand what you think I said, but I'm not sure you realize that what you heard is not what I meant.”

- Robert McCloskey quotes

“I understand with love comes pain, but why did I have to love so much?”
- Similar Quotes.

Better to understand a little than to misunderstand a lot.
- Anonymous

If you want truly to understand something, try to change it.
- Kurt Lewin

UNDERSTANDING does not necessarily mean AGREEMENT.
- Anonymous

You don't need strength to let go of something. What you really need is understanding.
- Guy Finley

“He who does not understand your silence will probably not understand your words.”
- Elbert Hubbard

I know, laaaaaaaag.
Just like a wavin' flag.

[All]
When I get older
I will be stronger
They’ll call me freedom
Just like a wavin flag

[K'naan]
Born from a throne
Older than Rome
But violent prone
Poor people zone

[Nelly Furtado]
But it’s my home
All I have known

[Sam Roberts]
Where I got grown
but now its gone

[Avril Lavigne]
Out of the darkness
in came the carnage
threatening my very survival

[Pierre Bouvier of Simple]
Fractured my streets
and broke all my dreams

[Tyler Connolly of Theory of a Deadman]
now Feels like defeat to wretched retreat

[All]
So we strugglin’

[Kardinal Offishall]
Fighting to eat

[All]
And we wonderin’

[Kardinal Offishall]
If we’ll be free

[Jully Black]
We cannot wait for some faithful day
it’s too far away so right now I’ll say

[All - Chorus]
When I get older
I will be stronger
They’ll call me freedom
Just like a waving flag
(And then it goes back x3)

Ahhho ahhho ahhho

[Lights]
So many wars settling scores

[Deryck Whibley of Sum 41]
All that we’ve been through
and now there is more

[Serena Ryder]
I hear them say love is the way

[Jacob Hoggard of Hedley]
Love is the answer that’s what they say

[Emily Haines]
But were not just dreamers
of broken down grievers

[Hawsley Workman]
Our hand will reach us
and we will not see ya

[Drake]
This can’t control us
no it can’t hold us down

[Chin Injeti]
We gon pick it up even though we still struggling
Find More lyrics at www.sweetslyrics.com

[Pierre Lapointe]
Au nom de la survie (In the name of survival)

[all]
and we wondering

[Pierre Lapointe]
Battant pour nos vies (Fighting for our lives)

[All]
We patiently wait
for some other day

[Fefe Dobson and Esthero]
thats too far away so right now I say

[All - Chorus]

[Drake - Rapping]
Uhh – well alright
How come when the media stops covering
and there’s a little help from the government
we forget about the people still struggling
and assume that its really all love again nahh
see we don’t have to wait for things to break apart
if you weren’t involved before it’s never too late to start
you probably think that it’s too far to even have to care
well take a look at where you live what if it happened there?
you have to know the urge to make a change lies within
and we can be the reason that they see the flag rise again

[Nikki Yanofsky & Drake]
When I get older
I will be stronger
They’ll call me freedom
Just like a wavin’ flag

[15]
and then it goes back

[Justin Nozuka]
and then it goes back

[Nikki Yanofsky]
Then it goes back

[Chorus - All]

[Justin Bieber]
When I get older
When I get older
I will be stronger
just like a waving flag.
[End]

Blank? Ya exactly.

HI.
Today I felt so wasted. No, the day was wasted. I went and arrived to school with such a tired mind and sleepy eyes. I slept the first three periods off. I bought food which I didn't finish. Everything I ate tasted horrible. I shivered too much. I didn't laugh enough. After school I just went home and wasted the afternoon sleeping. I had a plan but someone wasn't up for it. Nb haha. So at around 8 I woke up then mum came in and went like "Mel, tk bangun makan?" and I was like "Huh?" hahaha. Didn't expect her to
come and ask me to wake up just to eat. So I woke up and yeah, Nyai cooked pecel. However it's spelled. Now am using Nyai's itouch to go
around the web. Ahh I'm still do tired. Terry came up to me just now and went "I heard all the dancers had their asses hurting" HAHA so true. All the dancers are probably suffering when sitting, standing, climbing up or down staircases. I hate how I love yog.
August important.
Well, that's that. You know you can talk to me about just anything. I'm always waiting yeah, just come and I'll be there.
Alright then, tomorrows gonna suck helluva lot.
Nights <3ers. :)

Handover.

Today, everything was just..unexpected?

Madrasah was pretty fine, talked to Atiqah all the way.

Went home, made the decision to not follow Mum and the rest to go Tpy.

There was Kuda Kepang at ma voiddeck.

Its like, i happened to comment on Nad's page. & Helisa replied.

Then after that she texted me, she was downstairs. She asked me to go down but i was like lazy..

So after like an hour she texted me to go down, and i did.

Saw her & Rozanisha.

Talked, very fast.

Then Helisa went "Eh your brother..."

And i turned and just stoned.

Yeah, sat and talked. Went to the shop. Helisa damn cute i tell you, kept on dropping stuff.

Yeah went back to sit.

Stayed around till like eight thirty..

Sent Helisa to the road there.

& went home.

I really do not understand my feelings today.

Clashed together, all of them.

One moment of anger, one moment of excitement, one moment of miss, one moment of fear, one moment of love, one moment of betrayal, one moment of pain.

Its so difficult.

Youre perfect.

Will the pain heal?

You never understand.

The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time
I am here still waiting though I still have my doubts
I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain there is healing
In your name I find meaning

The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead
And I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for purpose, they're still looking for life

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain is the healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm hangin' on another day
Just to see what you will throw my way
And I'm hangin' on to the words you say
You said that I will, will be ok

The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone
I may have lost my way now, having forgot my way home

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain is there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on

& well, today, i found out something.
When you lose something, something better comes along.
Look on the bright side, the better part of what happened.
Or think about what would have or would have not happened.
Anyway, thanks for the day Helisa. ;D
Tomorrow's Monday.
With much love.

Thick toes.

Stuck with this girl for six whole hoursssssss.

HAHAHA.

Wore my Adidas today. Been sucha long time since i last did.

Met up w Nad, Amirah in the morning for breakfast @ kbmac.

We were afraid that we'd be late, so we ran to school.

A point where Amirah's phone fell and crashed and i wanted to pick it up and she was like "LIN, FASTER, WHAT IS THAAAAAAT?!?!?!"

And i was like IS YOUR PHONE WTH!!!!!

So we made it in time.

YOG today was, damn, pretty intensive like whoaaaaaaaa.
Warm up was a killer manxz.

After warmup, had a break. Just lay down for the whole ten minutes.

When we woke up, whoa, legs jelly ttm.

So yeah, learned more steps. Quite long rests today but still, my legs were dying.

The last rest was like 15 mins or something and i just slept the whole rest.

After dancing for the last time for the day, i screamed.

But after that we had to sit in a circle and do like 4o jumps 20 pumpings and this 10 weird leg thingy.

Our staminas like shit.

After dance head to Mac, alot angmohs. Seriously. Like young guy angmohs. One very hansum. Yeah.

No seats so headed for Hub, i wanted to shit so bad but couldnt. =.=

Mac, Amirah sudden runoff.

245 home.

Reached home, hadnt got the chance to shower, dropped on my bed and slept.

I know, disgusting. Havent even change know. Everything just shut down like that. :/

Woke up at around eight plus, and yeah.

Tomorrow up early again.

God, i love dancing.

Me
Ouh hahhaha
tsk
rabak uh holiday
tkleh nampak
HAHA

10:14pmNur Atiqah
lol ...
gy blok dyr ....

Hahaha she damn cute uh can. Seeing her tomorrow. We're dyinggggg. Now im chatting with the brudder. Lol.

Seriously, i think the first ever mascot i want to meet to get my phobia off is Russell. He is one mascot i would love to meet without the fear.

This boy pretty awesome.

Alright then, will be off.

Im so so fucking tired.

Postit.

Hello ;)

How was your day?

Mine started off extremely sleeepy. I have no freaking idea why cos i slept pretty early last night.

After school, stayed back with dance babes.

I slept while they talked.

At around 220 went back to get changed.

YOG was pretty fine today. Not that intensive.

But every week keep on changing formations. Irritating eh.

I go to trainings to dance, not to sit and wait and hope my position doesnt get changed.

*Lost for words*

HAHAHAHA.

So yeah, it was mkay. Ahh next training starts in like..eleven hours.

Dance, not running around etc please.

After training, went back.

Nad: *salams*

Lin: Bye Nadddddd~

Amirah: Kay bye Lin. *sticks out hand to salam*

Lin: Asal ngan kau, you walking here right?!

Amirah: Huh? No, i walking with Nad, i got dance.

Lin: *pauses, face kecewa* Wahlau mkay ah, then i go back alone ah. *slaps her hand*

Amirah: *faceshock*

Then mkay already, so we separated.

Like just after 3 seconds.

Nad: LINNNN! Your eyecandy over there! At the coffeeshop!

Lin: *turns* HUH WHAT?

Nad: There!!!

Lin: *screams*

So yah, went home quite happy ah. ;)

Reached home, showered. After showering went to my room.

I SWEAR I HAVE THE SWEETEST SMALLER BRUDDER EVER!!

I saw a huge packet of Gummy Bears with a note pasted on it saying

"For my lovely sister who loves gummy bears"

I shrieked out with total shock and uhmm, gladness?

Yaluhh, unexpected seh. I went to the room where he was and was like YOU MAD AR?!

But he was talking on the phone with whooooooooo. Zoey, was it? ;)

And another thing that made my happy like crazy was after seeing these.

Watch it watch it!! :D

The kid is like freaking amazing. I adore him.

Oh & i wonder how you guys read the title of my post.
Do you read it as, Post-It or Pos-tit?
HEHEHAHAHA!

Nights, breakfast tomorrow YAY! :B

Suspension.

My neck got a twisted vein.

My throat wants to puke so bad.

My head hurts, like as if its just squeezing ttm, squeezing smaller.

My face is stoned, because i cant think of an expression with the pain.

My eyes are tired, keeps closing and rolling back, and theyre asking me to cry.

My hands itch, wanting to pull my hair because of the pain.

My breaths gets slower, with longer sighs.

My body is asking me to go to bed.

My heart keeps saying, you know what you want but how long can you wait?

See, all thanks to a twisted vein on my neck.

Do you feel the pain?

So its like that.

!*@$$@*! says:
ouh..
sorry..
urr guy must be really fortunate haha
Linokotta says:
(:

Right.

Laughed. So i dont care.
(:

Mkay firstly, i wanna apologize if ive hurt anyone in any way.

I know, im sucha traitor right.

Sorry kay.

& yeah, id like to join you guys someday. ;)

Right.

So, got back many results today.

So far, i failed 1 out of 6.

Which is Maths, obviously. 40/100. Atiqa too. Sworn sisters. Hahaha! ;)

Lit P2, really upset with it. I got so super low!!! Like only 56 or 57. I want Ms Foo to mark my papers! ;(

English, first time EVER, i failed Comprehension. Super discouraging, disappointing!! Good thing my Summary helped out, like alot. Thanks Summary. & how did Atiqa get second in class?! Hahah. FTH!. ;(

Bio passed horribly. BUT, Thank God i did.

& POA. What the shrek, i passed!!! I was like, how did that happen?! Guess i was just lucky. Ahh, Thank God. ;)

Alhamdulillah. ;)

Atiqa, cheer up mkay. :D

Dont be too complacent.

Consistency is the key to success.

Always remember, those who are hardest hit are the strongest.

& those who are weakest hit are, yes, the weakest.

When you regret hurting someone you will always love.

No lahh, thats not true.

Work hard kay everyone. ;)

Sudden. imy :/

"I dont wanna fight." Liam says.
Was he crying? Awww.
Stand by me, nobody knows the way its gonna be.

Alley.

Alright, hello :B

Kallang Leisure Park.

When we entered the mall this guy came up to us and went like.
Man: You girls have ten dollars each?

Atiqa: Nahhs.
Man: Oh, thats a waste. Cos you know what you can get? Yes, italian food. Guaranteed no pork, no lard. :D

Atiqa: Oh, but no halal also.

Man: Alright then, when was the last time you girls went to the club?

(All three of us looked at each other)

Atiqa: We all what, 15 only lah!

Man: Alright then, what about yoga? *explains whole package thing* *ends* So you girls interested?

Atiqa: Nahhs. Sorry thaaaanks.

Man: Mkay its mkay thank you ;D

HAHAHAHAHA. (Y) ATIQA!

Kfc.

Arcade.

Bowling.

I realized that for both arcade and bowling i tried everything first.

Youll know what i mean. ;)

Amk Mac.

Home.

Super noob. Kept asking Amirah/Atiqa to follow me. HAHA.

I dont know how Atiqa does this man.
1st game results. Yeah, didnt take final results but, you guys shouldve prolly guessed whos first.

Notice the 5 zeros? Ball kept rolling to left longkang.

Notice the last one? Yeah. Strike and i turned to Atiqa and Amirah and screamed.

Then smile smile happy to myself HAHA :B

2nd game scores. Yeah did better. HAHA, notice if you switch the positions of my two numbers, then it'll be Amirah's score. & notice Atiqa got my1st game score?. HAHAHA. ( Btw yes, its Lin > Amirah > Atiqa )

I loveeee love love them ttm.

Amirah: Ape tuu, whats R?

Atiqa: Renovation.

Lin: Oh, R, Rosak.

I ♥ you both ttm ;DD

Nights ♥ ers.

Lyrics.

Today was extremely empty alone and bad.

So, theres no need to peel hehe.

But still, i suddenly feel like posting so here goes ^^

Facebook has some true and interesting groups.

Lemme share some.

1. "Are you okay? "Yeah...just tired." The biggest lie in history.

HAHAHA like many many! There was once after Lit i was held up by the teacher.

She asked if i was mkay cos ive been very quiet in class.

& i was like, uhmm yah just...tired uh. :D"

I mean, yeah, i was tired but then i cant possibly say "No im not mkay im feeling kinda depressed today, and yes, i was engaged in the lesson but im kinda abit too shy to speak up."

Heh. Partly.

2. Sometimes i say things that dont really make sense to me either.

HAHAHA mkay doesnt this always happen?

Yeah those moments when you talk but theres really nothing in your head then you friend goes "HUH APER KAU BBUAL?!" and you go "AHH TKPE TKDE PAPE!" and your friend goes "KAU, KAU JGN GILER AR!" and you go "HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!"

Mkay fine thats more like me and my friend.

3. you. A lot.

Like and you'll know what it means ;)

4. "Haha im older." "Yeah but youre gonna die first."

HAHAHAHAHAHAH ive never thought of this! Ill use thish one the next time! :B

5. Sometimes..when im doing Maths ill use the calculator even if its 3x3

Yeah man i do this!!! :D Esp in exams, just to doublecheck that 3x3 didnt change. ;D

6. Yes, im afraid someone will kill me when im washing my face.

Ahh so true. Then ill be like quickly quickly wash my face at the same time feeling alittle afraid to look up back to the mirror. Hahaha.

7. "Hey apple!" "WHAT?!" "Knife."

HAHAHAHAHA. Classic. Everyone knows. (Y) :B

Mkay i guess thats about it.

Thanks Amin for introducing me to this song. ;D

Who kicked a hole in the sky so the heavens would cry over me?
Who stole the soul from the sun in a world come undone at the seams?
- Let there be love by Oasis

Nights :B

Oasis

Maybe I will never be
All the things that I want to be
But now is not the time to cry
Now's the time to find out why
I think you're the same as me
We see things they'll never see
You and I are gonna live forever

Maybe I don't really want to know
How your garden grows
As I just want to fly
Lately did you ever feel the pain
In the morning rain
As it soaks you to the bone

AHH THANK YOU OASIS I LOVE YOU SO SO MUCH!

Longlasting sleep.

This morning at madrasah i received news from Mum.

Neighbour just three houses away had passed away.

That granny.

She looked so young, young enough, so strong, the last time i saw her.

She had an illness, but she went thru all the therapy, she held on so strongly, with her husband and children.

She came to my house for Hari Raya without fail, and i remember so well, when Nyai Yayi Aunt & Unc were going to Haji.

She was so very nice.

I admire how strong she was, although being sick.

Didnt get to see her the last time.

But i will always always remember her.

I may not know you that well, but yeah.

I'll always take how strong you were to fight that illness, and loving you are to your grandchildren.

I remember. Always will.

I happened to just know of this song yesterday.

This is for you granny.

With Love.

What day is it
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive

There's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right

What day is it
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive

Be strong, like you always have been.
Be thankful that God still gives you life today.
Rest in peace.

Her:
honestly , instead of me usually saying "ur life is fucked up" (sry)
imma say this,
its depressing and i really feel sry for u

Me:
really?
hahaha
what do i say..

Her:
in my opinion
u are going faster , nowhere

Me:
what you mean faster?

Her:
like
i dunno
juzz getting faster nowhere
and tats ...
can i say smtg?
like advise ?

Me:
yup sure

Her:
u dont mind ah ?

Me:
yeah just say uhs
haha

Her:
well i learn my self that without these challenges rite, you will be more weak. god gave u these confusing challenges cause he wanna put some meaning into life. god can juzz take away the probs and let u live happily, for some, happy life dont give much of meanings. so he wanna prepare u and juzz guide u to get it done wit. cause happy ppl means they are weak. and toughest depressing ppl, well , u are strong. seriously. u cn realize the situation tat u are in, ponder on it and able to express it. even tho u dont know wat u want, at least u have some of the lil things that u need tat doesnt really make u VERY happy and satisfied but at least, a few are here to follow u through tough times. i dont know how to end this so yeahh .

Me:
ah, my god.
you just made me cry lol .
but, that is a very good..thing.

Her:
SHOOT
im sorry

To Her, thank you hehe so much. Hahaha, her reaction last part damn cute. And, damn, as i was posting this i read it again to highlight the red ones and cried again. Gotta be thankful for what i already have. Im going faster, nowhere. I need to slow down, and know where to go. Dont go too fast, Lin. Dont go too fast mkay?

I love you Lin, always here for you. (:

Ezt's Grad.

Alright here are the pictures.

Date: 12 May 2010

Venue: ITE Simei

Event: HottiE'zzatti's Graduation Day

Lin, Ezt, Poo :B

Round table.

Brainstew.

Stupid HAHAHA.

Guest of.

Twins.

Thanks Ezt for editing the pictures already.

Oooh, so fast upload, very good. (Y)

HAHAHA.

Was fun.

:B