Back.

Hey guys im back from KL and everything and im tired tired tired.
lifes the same here and there. the only person i actually texted was Atiqa.
but thn again, back here in spore theres just so many shit to think about. i hate it.
ystd at ard 2am i woke up with fucking bad gastric. and i could only go back to sleep at 430+am? Mama wanted to bring me to hospital but i insisted not.
now im feeling feverish.
Met up with dance babes just now. Atiqa curled my hair. Lawaa, trust me. HAHAHA. went to Syamim's crib to watch Momok and i practically almost ran home because i was so scared. but of course i didnt, i forced myself to be brave. (Y)




Slowly falling out.

Obor.

Best few Obor pix.

Obor is just awesomely fantasticlely superb. Made lotsa new friends. They are just the lurve. They are soo hoooot. I cant believe i dreaded it before. Now, i want it back again. I swear, the new friends there are just fuckingly awesome. We didnt win anything, but we surely had lotsa fun. It was held for 3 days, 830am to 5pm. i will miss the early-morning wakeups, the squeezy trainrides, the "yummy" breakfastlunchteatime, the awesome "trainers", the awkward moments, the fun laughing sessions, the random camwhoring and etc. i just lurve everything, im glad i fucking went. (: Full update when im back from KL.

ok will be off to KL for three days. all i have to do is buy a fucking awesome bag and ill be what you want me to be. I cant wait for Subway. Should i do my hair at KL? hmmm.

sabar mengatasi cabaran, Leen.

okay bye. ♥

Camerawr.

haha last night (:

up early tmr for photography course. oh well. goodnight anw. Papa's noisy. bye.

i love baby.

B<3

just back from meeting Baaaaaaaby.
he came near to my block after his work.
i was like ahhhhhhhh sayaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaang. hehe.
told Mama i was going to 711 with Aidie.
so Aidie followed. i was like, you better go away ahhh.
then he dont want. =.=
so yah. walked Baaaaaaaaby and his friend to the busstop at the Tomato thingy.
Hehehe, he gave me cents to bus back. Jaywalked and chased after bus. cos Aidie was waiting hehe. =.= anyways, thanks a bunch Aidie, geeeeeeeee. ^^
Kinda happy i guesssss.
got kisses after soooooooo looooooooooooong.
hopefully i can meet him again tomorrow.
i miss Baaaaaaaaaaaaaaby bigtime.
i love Baaaaaaaaaaaaaaby.
;D

O:

i want to cut my hair down shoulder - length .
& then i want to cut my fringe bangs / side bangs .
but still ,
should i or should i not ?
hmm ,
& i still want my hair to remain black . *winks*
kay, help me decide ah people .
i want to straighten / rebond also siaa , hair's getting unauthorised .
Jeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeez !
k watching Sean Paul now <3
Nights!

i came back to edit this post to type in something but i forgot. =.=
k bye.

OK I REMEMBERED.
i want to change nickname.
to Lin.
what do you think? :D

♥ William, imy.

C.

Delayed photos.

This is all i have.

The rest,

the bbq

the class

the solo

the each and every person with me

the group

pictures

i

have

deleted

by

accident.

my bad okay guys.

sorry.

With ♥

D sent me this song yesterday.
Yes, in acoustic.
i love it, so much. ♥
enjoi ~





With blood shot eyes I watch you sleeping
The warmth I feel beside me is slowly fading
Would she hear me if I called her name?
Would she hold me if she knew my shame?

There's always something different going on
The path I walk's in the wrong direction
There's always someone fucking hanging on
Can anybody help me make it better?

Your tears don't fall
They crash around me
Her conscience calls the guilty to come home
Your tears don't fall
They crash around me
Her conscience calls the guilty to come home

The moments died, I hear no screaming
The visions left inside me are slowly fading
Would she hear me if I called her name?
Would she hold me if she knew my shame?

There's always something different going on
The path I walk's in the wrong direction
There's always someone fucking hanging on
Can anybody help me make it better?

Your tears don't fall
They crash around me
Her conscience calls the guilty to come home
Your tears don't fall
They crash around me
Her conscience calls the guilty to come home

Would she hear me if I called her name?
Would she hold me, if she knew my shame?

There's always something different going on
The path I walk's in the wrong direction
There's always someone fucking hanging on
Can anybody help me make it better?


Your tears don't fall
They crash around me
Her conscience calls the guilty to come home

Your tears dont fall they crash around me
Her conscience calls the guilty

Your tears don't fall
They crash around me
Her conscience calls the guilty to come home
Your tears don't fall

2D'09.

hey just back from Chalet.
whole thing + pictures tomorrow alright.
im beat ~
okay nights!
2D'09 rocks big time!
Lotsa love you guyyyyyyyyys! ♥




id like to cut my hair short w bangs.
& then id like to die my hair RED from the part where the bangs stop all the way down.
sudden thought.
what do you think? (:





oh oh!
& i miss baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaby baaaaaaaaaaaaaadly.
i lurve baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaby today.
I WANT TO MEET BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAABY! ♥

$

hey.
woke up at 10am today prepared met K & headed for school. back at 12nn.
prepared left house at 140pm met Amirah & Masri at 203pm and headed for Bishan. bought stuff had mac, bumped into Sheila & Tessa, head back at 356pm.
sat at the busstop, Mama texted me asking me where i am. asked me to meet her and the rest at 545pm. it was 416pm so i headed home first.
30minutes after reaching home left house again. head to Pizza Hut to eat. superbly funny, nice dinner it was w family. (:
headed to amkhub, Mama bought me & Hotnebs a Polo tee each.
homed and, yeah.
why is it that everytime i want to blog my mood swings?
her blog is not even worth a fucking tag ok?
fuck.
i really am a bad one arent i?
i miss you.
fuck.
oh & class chalet tmr.
have fun ok Leen?

Power.

Wazzup. okay so tmr morning maybe going breakfast w Mama and all @ kfc at around 8am. then around 10pm meet K to get her appeal form. then go home. then 2pm meet Amirah, shes accompanying me for some retail therapy. haiyy, hope Mama gives me money sia. & my fucking earpiece broke down again. fucking quality. currently thinking bout KL trip. Subway here i come. hope the damn coach has a toilet inside. Haiy. i really want to meet baby after work tmr but. i love william. keep the love.

Somewhat Sexy.

hey.
my title has got no link to my post k.

TOTALLY BITCHSLAPPED ME IN MY FUCKING FACE. JUST WHEN I THOUGHT THINGS WERE GONNA DO AWESOME LIFE BITCHSLAPPED ME. LIKE HELLO, I HAVE FEELINGS TO. HI, LIFE, IM SORRY IM NOT AS PERFECT AS YOU WANT ME TO BE. HI, LIFE, IM SORRY FOR BEING SUCHA BITCH AND AINT LISTENING TO YOU. HI, LIFE, IM SORRY FOR NOT FULFILLING YOUR NEEDS/WISHES. HI, LIFE, IM SORRY I AINT LIKE THOSE TYPICAL ANYTIME-ANYWHERE-LETS-GO-LEPAK-OR-GO-HERE-AND-THERE-FOR-NOTHING-AND-GO-BACK-LATE-OR-LETS-GO-TO-UNDERAGE-CLUBS-OR-LETS-GO-DRINKING-TONIGHT. HI, LIFE, CANT YOU JUST ACCEPT THE WAY I MADE YOU? HI, LIFE, CANT YOU JUST TAKE ME THE WAY I AM? HI, LIFE, CAN YOU JUST UNDERSTAND ME? HI, LIFE, ITS MY LIFE SO YOU FUCKING LET ME DO WHAT I WANT TO YOU. YOU HEAR ME? FUCK LIFE FUCK LIFE REAL HARD!
I WANT LIFE AS IT WAS BEFORE.



I don't give a damn about you
No nothing can change my mind
No way
I'm happy just to let you walk away.

Don't think about you at night
I'm happy to be alone
It's ok
But that was yesterday and now I'm

Driving in my car
Words don't get me far
When they don't mean (shhhh)
Ooooooooh!

I'm calling you at 3am and I'm
Standing here right outside your door
And I don't think that my heart can take much more
I'm scared of crackin' up again I just
Want it to be like it was before
Cos' I don't think that my heart can take much more

I don't give a damn what you do
I'm goin to get with you
Again
And that's the way this night is gonna end
You say that you need some time
How long does it take to see
That we are more than meant to be
And now you're

Driving in your car
But you won't get far
Cause your car is (shhhh)
Ooooooooh!

I'm calling you at 3am and I'm
Standing here right outside your door
And I don't think that my heart can take much more
I'm scared of cracking up again I just
Want it to be like it was before
Cause I don't think that my heart can take much more

Can take much more
Can take much more
Can take much more
can take much more

Driving in my car
Words don't get me far
When they tell me (shhhhh)
Ooooooooh!

I'm calling you at 3am and I'm
Standing here right outside your door
And I don't think that my heart can take much more
I'm scared of cracking up again I just
Want it to be like it was before
Cause I don't think that my heart can take much more

i still listen to them, i dont give a shit what people say about them, i love them miss them and i am going to remember them. I ♥ Busted.

13th!

ok second post.
went to take Panadol Flumax or something. Damn, it was huge! fell asleep and then woke up and texted. played Mama's lappy, talk to Mama. thn Mama pleated/plaited my hair i think its awesomely weird haha. k so thing is, baby kept calling me busok/busok syng/b=busok etc. =.= why? cos i never bath. sick what b! disturb me until so hardcore ): hmmpf.

k above picture, thts Busted. been listening to their songs alot lately. God knows how much i miss them. sad thing they broke up. Thanks eh, Charlie. Charlie's now in Fightstar. James' now in Son Of Dork. Matt doing solo. i would love to meet them someday ^^. PSSSST.

I ♥ BUSTED!.

& William baby, i love that thing you do!. \m/

13!

HAPPY FRIDAY THE 13th!

ok so today started off with being late and no tau suan ): sorry Atiqa. gyeahs, went for dance. dance until my brain cannot soak in anything anymore, seriously. kept on sneezing, i think the flubug loves me so now its stickin on w me fuck it my nose is blocked im breathing thru my mouth and fuck its so tiring i swear feels like asthma and God knows how many tissues ive used. i completely just abhor this. Mama told me to sleep but, hey, she fell asleep so im using her lappy for RockRiot and etc. Nyehehehs!* gyeahs so at 11 it was time for Atiqa Keshini and I to get our streaming results. so got results and, hey, im freaking happy w it. Nyehehehs!* i got into 3E with Chem&Bio Geog Lit POA. omfg, can you fucking believe it that i need not take D&T HomeEc or Art? wah fuuuuuucking happy sia seriously lol. bought Milk Tea sat and talk w K for abit and then homed. Ajul homed already ): so yeah, ate MeeSoup and yummy. ok now my tummy hurts. baby still sleeping? wahahas, its raining. ok i feel good today. damn happy w my results =P Impressive, Leen. Nyehehehs!* ok i shall continue suffering from a blocked nose while playing RockRiot. GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH. Panadol Flu where are you i need you now. ):

oh oh & fuck those people who talked bout ___ damn you guys ah if you guys've got no better things to say bout her then go fuck yourselves, and go dig your own fucking graveyard k ass. like, hello, wheres your fucking respect? kns sia. you guys think you dope? seriously, you guys are fucking immature. go fuck yourselves ah. kaninabeychaochibai fucktards. this up your asses yaw bitches! _l_

* oh, & Nyehehehs is baby's cute laugh. Geee ^^

RockRiot!

ok am at Aidie's house playing Momma's lappy. began RockRiot-ing @ Facebook and couldnt stop HAHAHA. Aidie has joined me. our fingers and backs are hurting. im addicted to this game. theres even songs from Pantera, Kiss, Incubus. woooooohoooooooooooo! cant wait to buy the torn black pants & new hair. WAHAHAHAHA. Rock on asses. \m/

Teenagers.

ok fuckin pissed msn is bitching on me. besides that i dont feel good anymore. _l_

NO.

ok so awak tahu awak dah buat salah tapi awak tkkn rase pape kan? ckp mchm tkde pape abeh jln gitu jer. saya adr buat itu pada awak tk? tak pernah, betul? awak seharusnya mengambil langkah pertama untuk memberitahu saya tentang perkara ini awak seharusnya mengambil tanggungjawab atas perbuatan awak. tiada sesiape yang akan suka jika awak lakukan ini terhadapnya. ok tidak mengapa, mungkan dia telah memulakannya tetapi come on lah. ok pergi lah awak ke sini saner. bagaimana pulak saya? saya mahu pikir awak akan mulakan sebuah konversation pon tidak boleh. sayer menunggu ya? seriously itu pmpn bikin gua panassssssss!. jadi sekarang saya akan pergi ke katil dan bersabar dan mungkin melupakannya. Ya saya akan lupakannya kerana saya memang lebih hebat. kali ini, saya akan mengatakan bawaha biarlah apa yang telah terjadi tidak boleh ditukarkan lagi. juga, pikir ahk itu ring you can always tak angkat pe. ok tidak mengapa saya tidak mengambil peduli tentang hal ini lagi. buang yang keruh, ambil yang jernih. saya percaya dengan awak (;

but seriously, you got me hanging there for a moment.

writing in malay calms me down? tho i sounds like a idiot hahaha. oh well. enjoi~ *winks*

9.

Aint hardcore, but. these just caught my eyes and got me having that smile on my face when watching his videos and looking at the pix. cmon, i know you guys love it~ oh well, might wna take a deep breath before scrolling down. dont have much pix but, you know, theres always google and youtube etc. woooooh! extremely breathtakingly excitingly totally freakingly awesomely sexyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. love his hair now and then. best thing is, baby reminds me of him. he reminds me of baby. i love seeing them both. wooooh! *melts*

So yesterday.

& yes, i know i look super disgusting. thanks rain. =.= orange part is for yesterday btw.

met Atiqa at around 330. trained down to Orchard. we frigginly laughed our asses off in the train. had to run to shelter in the bloody rain. just thank god i didnt slip and fall. but the rain did some serious damage to my hair, boohoo. ): tried to fix it up but it was still the same. ahh damn it, i want natural straight hair~~~~ k anw, head to Pastamania for lunch. Yummy~ saw security guard fighting w unknown old man. tsk. thn walked around Far East. i got myself this new Avenged Sevenfold tee hehehe ♥. Yeah, i have my eyes on this pair of shorts and the awesome hoodie thingy at the shop where i bought e shirt. id need like a hundred to buy them both. anyways, headed to Ion to donate the Lego thingy. yeah and then head to Bishan for CottonOn. headed to Atiqa's crib for fun. then at around 730pm off to meet William baby @ hub. watched him play the soccer game thing. =.= like many matches know. my butt was hurting as i was only sitting on like one side of my butt. then walked around till about 930. Mama was texting and all. bused home, and, yeah. thats about it.
so i will be wearing rock style on class bbq. maybe ill be coming on 1 or 2 of the 3 days? i dont know, but i cant wait. ^^
& i just got reminded that on Friday, i will get my streaming results. okay im nervous.
i am so bored right now. think im gonna hit bed once again. hopefully i get good dreams this time, lol.
ok bye. (:

am i supposed to feel regret? or what? all i know is, im going to hell. for sure. arghh.

B, i love you, i wont leave you. Mark my words. ♥

i cannot wake up without you on my mind.

One Dollar Short.

i am frigginly bored, im guessing boyf is sleeping so i just have to fill my time up until he wakes up. You see how paranoid i get?!?!?!


so i chatted up w Rafi, my couz. Yeahh, he got paranoid too i guess. click to enlarge. tskk. =.=

Waight.

ok hi.
finally without interruptions/hassles/hangedpages/etc.
lets start with yesterday.
so yesterday i woke up frigginly early, but was still pretty layte.
was supposed to meet Atiqa @ 745am but that was when i woke up.
so got ready and all and left hse. met her, bought Mac takeouts and bused to Mediacorp.
we went there just for me to change? =.=
afta dat bused back to amk & trained to yck.
walked, saw e swimming pool. wanted to swim so badly.
we were like, can we swim naked? or swim with our underwear and go back home wearing it wet or not wearing it at all?
rofls, so we headed to where we wanted to head to.
Gymnasium.
hahaha, i know right~
we paid for entrance and all and then we started on the treadmill.
and another thingy.
so overall we did like 5km of running etc.
at 11+ we decided to take our leave.
we had a tiny chat w the malay uncle there who is i think in his 60s?
MU: tk sekolah eh?
Atiqa: ha? tk, holiday.
MU: ohh. sekolah ape nie? ang mo kio?
Atiqa: ha? oh, tk uh, Mayflower.
MU: ohh, kalau hari2 dtg sini bagus~
Atiqa: haha, yeah~
then when we were out of there Atiqa turned to me and was like, "hari2 dtg sini duit aku habes siaa."
and when paying for the entrance, the person was like,
Person: are you below 19 or over?
Leen: ha? oh, before.
Atiqa: below 19~.
i look at her and was like, ohh paiseh. lols, i said before 19 instead of below. pfft.
anyways, we left and she was singing away.
trained back to amk, bought cookies and 269-ed to kbcc to check out for singing competitions.
bused and walked back home.
tried some coloring on my hair and,
ystd night i was really down, till i began crying. thn i quickly put myself to sleep to forget..
oyah, chat w baby ystd night.
he was telling me hes gna have his interview tmr, which is today. lols.
he wanted to work Full Time, which means 11am-12am.
i was like, wtf.
nono, not in a 'what the fuck sia' way but in the 'what the fuck, how am i gna cope?' way.
do you get it?
yeah anyway, i was thinking how the fuck am i going to fucking cope with that?! obviously he wont be able to text me or anything plus hes gonna work everyday.
it was sort of a wrong time to talk bout it.
i cried even more. =.=
i felt like seriously weak at heart last night.
like im seriously sensitive and weak inside these days.
i really dont know what to do or how to cope with these fucking changes.
oh and did i mention todays outing w baby is cancelled? because of the fucking rain?
i miss him like fucking much.
postponed anyways. i want to hug him.
i really cannot stand missing so many people at once. i cannot take it.
but then again, it is if you get that job baby.
OH OH & WE GOT A CALL FROM WAKYAH & NYAI AT NIGHT! OMG I FUCKING CRIED WHEN I HEARD THEIR VOICES. DAMNNNNNNNNN ♥

ok so today i woke up from sleep and found myself crying.
i dreamt bout the four people in my prev. post.
Yeaaah, miss them loads.
i really did not want to wake up this morning.
because i was alone at home, theres nobody for me to talk to, and i had to cook myself.
i really either wanted to not wake up, or get out of the house and do something to forget bout something else.
but sadly i have to stay home and take care of my brother. damn sia, hes primary six!!!
okay i totally let myself out at this post. i think this is enough.
im texting baby, fucking love him.
bye, love you guys~
OH OH & THIS MORNING WHEN I WAS PLAYING THIS COM I GOT A CALL FROM WAKYAH HEHEHE. MISS THEM ♥

William, i just love you. Hugs&Kisses. ♥

H.

yeps, thats them. (:
woke up early, bused to airport and sent them off.
aww, i cried a number of tears but im keeping the rest inside.
idw let them out. i love them i love them!
look at Nyai! she is sooo cute!
WakYah hugged me so much before departing.
awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.
i love love love you guys! i miss you guys so much already!
ill be there when you guys come back okay.
have lotsa fun, take care!
Much loves & misses! ♥
& we saw uhm, Aidie's friend's boyf?
i think its Lily's boyf, Hazmi.
Yeahh.
so we had burger king..
six burgers six large fries six large Cokes two chicken tenders.
Ajul wanted this toy car, so Uncle Joe bought the bk kids meal thingy.
then Ajul was like, "Papa, i dont want cheeseburger, i want the car..."
then the cashier was like. "yes? what color you want?"
then Ajul was replied damn soft and shyly, "Greeen..."
then the cashier person gave green.
then Ajul pitifully said "and another one red for my brother..."
but of course he didnt get it cos they only bought one. how cute and toughtful kan.
i cant wait to have my own children. (:
so gyeahs bused back home, Nebs & i were locked outside the door.
managed to fix our way in.
and,
still missing them.
baby i dont know went where, tk msg pon. Haiy, dah tk syng i eh b? are you even thinking of me? cos im thinking of you.
stuffs on tmr, hope ill have fun?.
i dont know man, now that Nyai's not here, i have to be home to take care of brudder.
cmon lah, hes primary six, tell him to learn to be independent ah.
dont screw up my fucking holiday. =.=
Nights people.

i miss them. do you fucking understand? ):

Why are you leaving me?

they are leaving tmr.
sending them.
gonna cry, confirm.
im gonna miss them.
insya'allah they will have a safe trip otw there and otw back.
God will be with all of you.
i will miss all of you.
i loveee you guyssssssssss!
Awwwww.

VerySweet.

so, this song after a confession.
i love you so much, love. (:



Di sini aku masih sendiri
Merenungi hari-hari sepi
Aku tanpamu, masih tanpamu

Bila esok hari datang lagi
Kucoba 'tuk hadapi semua ini
Meski tanpamu, ooo... meski tanpamu

Bila aku dapat bintang yang berpijar,
Mentari yang tenang bersamaku, disini
Kudapat tertawa menangis merenung
Di tempat ini aku bertahan

Suara... dengarkanlah aku
Apa kabarnya, pujaan hatiku
Aku di sini menunggunya, masih berharap, di dalam hatinya, aa...
Suara, dengarkanlah aku
Apakah aku, slalu di hatinya
Aku di sini menunggunya, masih berharap, di dalam hatinya, aa...

Dan aku masih tetap disini,
Kulewati semua yang terjadi,
Aku menunggumu, oh, aku menunggu

(Suara dengarkanlah aku
Apa kabarnya pujaan hatiku)
Aku disini menunggunya, masih berharap, di dalam haitnya, aa...
Suara dengarkanlah aku,
Apakah aku ada di hatinya
Aku disini menunggunya masih berharap, di dalam hatinya...
Suara dengarkanlah aku,
Apa kabarnya, pujaan hatiku,
Aku disini menunggunya, masih berharap di dalam hatinya, oh, oh, oh.
(Suara dengarkanlah aku...)

10 things.

1. went to shop today.
2. Papa bought me earpiece.
3. Mama bought me food and a bunch of accessories.
4. i bought a Panini for lunch and the bread was fucking awesome i tell you.
5. Mum's friend's daughter fucking hawt.
6. holiday training banyak, cant wait for them to be over.
7. William baby texted me while i was in jb aww he missed me hehehehe <3
8. im wearing an aloha-ish shorts & bandshirt. what a mix. =.=
9. im chatting with baby right nownownow.
10. Nyai taking off in 3 days ): gonna miss her hardcore. she'll be off for a month. i love you, have a safe trip Nyai. not gonna go training cos im sending her. confirm im going to cry. ):