Killing me slowly inside

Apparently at my weakest point (again) mentally, physicaly and emotionally. It tires the hell out of me when i fall asleep so late for thinking too much, and wake up so early to do things i really dont wanna do. Usaha doa sabar. No matter how easy its said, sometimes i cant do it.. Im weak im sad im scared. Thats just what i am. Everytime i look at myself i cant fully believe its me. So much time spent on some shit i dont wanna do. Im tired. Things keep being shoved into me at the most crucial times. So many typos.
This will get me stronger, believe and sabar, Lin.
God please help me...