Waight.

ok hi.
finally without interruptions/hassles/hangedpages/etc.
lets start with yesterday.
so yesterday i woke up frigginly early, but was still pretty layte.
was supposed to meet Atiqa @ 745am but that was when i woke up.
so got ready and all and left hse. met her, bought Mac takeouts and bused to Mediacorp.
we went there just for me to change? =.=
afta dat bused back to amk & trained to yck.
walked, saw e swimming pool. wanted to swim so badly.
we were like, can we swim naked? or swim with our underwear and go back home wearing it wet or not wearing it at all?
rofls, so we headed to where we wanted to head to.
Gymnasium.
hahaha, i know right~
we paid for entrance and all and then we started on the treadmill.
and another thingy.
so overall we did like 5km of running etc.
at 11+ we decided to take our leave.
we had a tiny chat w the malay uncle there who is i think in his 60s?
MU: tk sekolah eh?
Atiqa: ha? tk, holiday.
MU: ohh. sekolah ape nie? ang mo kio?
Atiqa: ha? oh, tk uh, Mayflower.
MU: ohh, kalau hari2 dtg sini bagus~
Atiqa: haha, yeah~
then when we were out of there Atiqa turned to me and was like, "hari2 dtg sini duit aku habes siaa."
and when paying for the entrance, the person was like,
Person: are you below 19 or over?
Leen: ha? oh, before.
Atiqa: below 19~.
i look at her and was like, ohh paiseh. lols, i said before 19 instead of below. pfft.
anyways, we left and she was singing away.
trained back to amk, bought cookies and 269-ed to kbcc to check out for singing competitions.
bused and walked back home.
tried some coloring on my hair and,
ystd night i was really down, till i began crying. thn i quickly put myself to sleep to forget..
oyah, chat w baby ystd night.
he was telling me hes gna have his interview tmr, which is today. lols.
he wanted to work Full Time, which means 11am-12am.
i was like, wtf.
nono, not in a 'what the fuck sia' way but in the 'what the fuck, how am i gna cope?' way.
do you get it?
yeah anyway, i was thinking how the fuck am i going to fucking cope with that?! obviously he wont be able to text me or anything plus hes gonna work everyday.
it was sort of a wrong time to talk bout it.
i cried even more. =.=
i felt like seriously weak at heart last night.
like im seriously sensitive and weak inside these days.
i really dont know what to do or how to cope with these fucking changes.
oh and did i mention todays outing w baby is cancelled? because of the fucking rain?
i miss him like fucking much.
postponed anyways. i want to hug him.
i really cannot stand missing so many people at once. i cannot take it.
but then again, it is if you get that job baby.
OH OH & WE GOT A CALL FROM WAKYAH & NYAI AT NIGHT! OMG I FUCKING CRIED WHEN I HEARD THEIR VOICES. DAMNNNNNNNNN ♥

ok so today i woke up from sleep and found myself crying.
i dreamt bout the four people in my prev. post.
Yeaaah, miss them loads.
i really did not want to wake up this morning.
because i was alone at home, theres nobody for me to talk to, and i had to cook myself.
i really either wanted to not wake up, or get out of the house and do something to forget bout something else.
but sadly i have to stay home and take care of my brother. damn sia, hes primary six!!!
okay i totally let myself out at this post. i think this is enough.
im texting baby, fucking love him.
bye, love you guys~
OH OH & THIS MORNING WHEN I WAS PLAYING THIS COM I GOT A CALL FROM WAKYAH HEHEHE. MISS THEM ♥

William, i just love you. Hugs&Kisses. ♥