With shells

Self-love has GOT to happen real soon.

I found out depression hits hardest when you realize its not because everyone hates you;

but because you hate yourself.

There's definitely a LOT of disapprovals and rules in my family.

As hard as i try to accept and keep myself in the square, i am only a teenager.

But different.

Hm, okay, abrupt stop here.

Lost my train of thoughts.

Anyway, nothing i did made me feel better.

But it is what it is.

Everytime i get over something, someone has to bring it up again.

And then id mull over it again.

Sucks when, the people around you could but you couldnt.

The people around you are but you arent.

And i got frustrated.

Everytime im up front, ill be sent waaay back.

I thought that my height already gives away.

But i dont think so no more.

Am i really that worthless?

Oh yeah and dont say all those things anymore please..

I just suck, right?

Forget about it, forget about me lah.

I need a spark, its about time i step my game up.