Fat fries

2nd March '11

1. The day i failed English FOR THE FIRST TIME, and trust me, it was really hard up on me, i have NEVER failed English IN MY ENTIRE LIFE ugh. Pains me pains me pains me, and i have never gotten so low for Compo. Stupid bell curves, a sixty is a C6 are you crazy mad?!?!? My Greg, why yall so hard.

2. I passed Mathematics. Holyyy craaaap. Failed English and passed Maths what crap is this!

3. Rest myself well, yup, so damn well for tomorrow i will die once again. Oh my Greg, you have NO idea what its like.. Youre SO tired and you try SO hard but others wouldnt, and you all die in the end. You have NO idea.

4. I REALLY think there is something wrong with me, or maybe just my study method.. Im not studying enough. I keep telling myself this yet i do nothing to change it. I know im tired, but i also know im weak. When its a free day, i tell myself to rest instead of study. And my study-able time is so SO off. Almost teared in school because of this. If i carry on like this i will receive shitty results, more fails or more Cs and no As at all. What about all those dreams i had when i first started, where did they go? I know; ive just been too damn tired to even think about what i want, let alone strive for it. :'(

5. Just gotta remind myself that in this world we can NEVER work alone, there are always other people, even if you dont want/intend to impress them, they are still there you still have to work with them and they will still judge you. You either get hard on them or be gentle. I choose to be gentle by nature. And not everyone will work as hard as you do, even if you want that G and you put in all for it, not everyone else will. You have to either brainwash them into thinking the same way you do or just leave them be and let them let you fail.

Goodnight.